Tenderness.

To want and to need is very different things. When you need - you catch at any possibility. No one can help you, but yourself.

Some of my radical thoughts:
1) I'm quite tired of all this theater of human relations. I'm never going to play these meaningless roles. I'm just myself! And you can't build good relations with me, if you won't be open and sincerity to me. I always feel it. In the past I could deceive myself for some things I didn't want to see, even I felt it - I ALWAYS feel it. But now - no compromise. I need a high-quality life, first of all inner quality, it's the most important kind of quality of any kinds. Now I'm already have the highnest-quality parents, the highnest-quality friends and it will be everywhere in my life. You get what you choose. I choose the best and I don't need a puddle, if I can have a sea or even an ocean.
2) No smoke, no alchohol, no meat.
It's quite simple to understand I think) It's not a secret that smoking and drinking is not good for health and mind... If you'll drink much you won't control yourself, your actions, decisions etc... I want to control myself, my life and make right decisions. I think I can drink as maximum something like カシスグレープフルーツ :)

The past is the past, now everything is different. But I'm glad, cause I became better in my own quality)

Some work

Yesterday:

After:

And today we had a fashion show with our agency in the trade center. From 11 to 18 we were there with repetitions, fitting and 3 times entrence. And there was so fun and cool! :D Haha I really loved it, maybe I'm tired now, but so many funny moments and so many positive! I totally enjoyed it.
I really love this work.

New shoots vol.2

Natural

 

I fell in love with life, long time ago, once and for all :)
I can't find words HOW MUCH I like to live, how much I like to create my life, how much I like to inspirate other people around me and be inspiration by them, by beauty around, by art, by nature, by everything, by life!
I can be a light for you. Because I am a light to myself. Now. And every moment better and better. I don't care about past. Yesterday is history, today is a gift, that's why it's called present :)
Sure, sometimes I have not so perfect situations, but I'm VERY quickly person, so I can turn myself to harmony really quickly. Btw now it's not so perfect time for me too, but I'm so happy anyway. If it is rainy - learn how to dance under the rain. Inside I'm dancing :)

Many people feel themselves not so good cause of many reasons... And if you will feel yourself not so good too, you can't help them at all. Only when you have a power inside, only when you have an open heart and from strong position, help can be given only from strong position... And when they need your support, when you know, that people need your words, your warm, your openess - then you understand, that you don't have the right to be sad or unhappy.

"Because when our mental state is calm and happy, we can easily put up with minor pains and physical discomforts. On the other hand, when our mind is restless and upset, the most comfortable physical facilities do not make us happy."

I want to be able to do sometime to others what I can do to myself now.
I want feel this world as full as I can. I want to be in this world as full as I can. I want to open myself as full as I can and open this world as full as I can.
I want to create. beauty. inspiration. happiness. love. wisdom. me. us. life.
Now I feel an endless love and harmony. I pray you feel it too. It's the deepest understanding inside, that you have all what you want already, here and now. You are the world and the world is you :)

P.s. This painting of me was drawn by my chinese friend, and I like it very much :)

Haha. Russia.
Customs in Russia:

• You never know when (even if you know when!!)
• You never know what
• You never know who
• You never know how (~much time and effrots it takes)
• The works starts doesn't mean that everybody starts
• Deadline is a line you go along not the one you cross

It's so true!! But really - I'm quite tired of it. It's like you live in a very absurd universe...
It could be very funny if it won't be so true!

But... it is what I have now, and if you don't like something - change it, if you can't change it - change your attitude. So... I will look at this like at kinda funny universe :) Maybe now I'm like an Alice in Wonderland haha. Alina in Wonderland :3

Tomorrow I have an important day cause of many things.

As for my life, I need to go forward, I need to go on. Anything is doesn't matter, I'll go on.

Recently I'm so grateful to people. I'm always grateful to them, but recently even stronger...
I'm so inspirated of quality communication.
Openness, sincerity, kindness, respect, understanding - some of my understanding under "quality communication". It's necessary to me.
I wrote already something about sincerity in my opinion here.

Okay, I'm going into tomorrow.
Hope everybody who read this will have a very good and happy day! ^^
Hope everyone will have such kind of day.

My Universe, thank you for everything I have and everything you do to me. I love you.

P.s. I have a second profile on this link: http://ellylf.tumblr.com (or http://aujali.blogspot.ru). Where I write some of my thoughts, not daily life. So, maybe I'll write some of my daily life's aspects here.

Just me

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