Forget about all my plans. Now I don't have any plans at all. I have the life :)

My dear friends, everything has changed.
You can't understand how much. But you can compare it with new birth :)

It was quite lazy for me to translate my russian into good english, so... something like that :D

The past, reactions, blocks, clamps have no power over me... This state is more than all your life can give you without it. But you can't come here by mind, never, only by heart ... Fill yourself by it indefinitely, until it will heal all your wounds and turn into enormous flow, sweeping away everything on the path. Without it everything is senselessly. You can not even imagine for how much you are living in a prison of the mind. Think less. Fill with love. And everything will come. Make a step, tear chains.
Before I thought that I was more or less free. But it is just a concept, it is only mind which has nothing common with reality. True freedom indescribably, it is such a breath that changes you and your life completely. It is incomparable with anything comparable and can not be compared. Your whole life "before" will seem pointless. Because you can not live a full life without freedom. "Money, work, family, affection, pasta etc" - this is just an excuse and nothing but excuses. This is how you justify your lack of freedom. And only this. I know, I know it very well, you can fool yourself, but not me, because I see, I know and went through it. I know the difference.
All of your desires/work/business - can you do it all day without any payment, just because you want to do it? If so - you are on the right way. If not - it costs nothing, really.
Create is good if you create only what comes from deep inside you. Only this will bring joy, happiness and benefit. For you and the whole world. Otherwise, you create an empty illusion, behind which there is nothing but imitation, cheating you. Touch - and everything will crumble into dust. You live in a card house and you put great effort in order to maintain it in a gust of wind of life. Why? What do you fear? What do you lose? Loss - is a great illusion. You can not lose something that never was.
Stop all attempts to control your reality from mind. I've always done it. There were hundred and one of concepts and ideas in my mind. It will not help. Salvation can not come from outside. It can only be a catalyst for your internal processes. All salvation is inside. Even for simple reason that there is nothing outside. This is a game in duality. And you can play in it totally only when you aware yourself as a player. It is not knowledge or understanding, it is awareness. Until this moment, your life will be complicated, unclear and confusing. You'll toss in a cage in your own mind, without understanding that you are not in a cell, but the cell into you. And it can't be open inside, where you frantically trying to find keys. The door is not inside (in the mind), but outside (in the heart). Though it was never locked. Just push it. And have the courage to come out. That's all.

Can you refuse what you do not want?
Do not fight, do not resist, do not change yourself, just stop doing what does not light your heart?
And will you find the courage to take that freedom, relaxation and "void" that will arise in your life?