Forget about all my plans. Now I don't have any plans at all. I have the life :)

My dear friends, everything has changed.
You can't understand how much. But you can compare it with new birth :)

It was quite lazy for me to translate my russian into good english, so... something like that :D

The past, reactions, blocks, clamps have no power over me... This state is more than all your life can give you without it. But you can't come here by mind, never, only by heart ... Fill yourself by it indefinitely, until it will heal all your wounds and turn into enormous flow, sweeping away everything on the path. Without it everything is senselessly. You can not even imagine for how much you are living in a prison of the mind. Think less. Fill with love. And everything will come. Make a step, tear chains.
Before I thought that I was more or less free. But it is just a concept, it is only mind which has nothing common with reality. True freedom indescribably, it is such a breath that changes you and your life completely. It is incomparable with anything comparable and can not be compared. Your whole life "before" will seem pointless. Because you can not live a full life without freedom. "Money, work, family, affection, pasta etc" - this is just an excuse and nothing but excuses. This is how you justify your lack of freedom. And only this. I know, I know it very well, you can fool yourself, but not me, because I see, I know and went through it. I know the difference.
All of your desires/work/business - can you do it all day without any payment, just because you want to do it? If so - you are on the right way. If not - it costs nothing, really.
Create is good if you create only what comes from deep inside you. Only this will bring joy, happiness and benefit. For you and the whole world. Otherwise, you create an empty illusion, behind which there is nothing but imitation, cheating you. Touch - and everything will crumble into dust. You live in a card house and you put great effort in order to maintain it in a gust of wind of life. Why? What do you fear? What do you lose? Loss - is a great illusion. You can not lose something that never was.
Stop all attempts to control your reality from mind. I've always done it. There were hundred and one of concepts and ideas in my mind. It will not help. Salvation can not come from outside. It can only be a catalyst for your internal processes. All salvation is inside. Even for simple reason that there is nothing outside. This is a game in duality. And you can play in it totally only when you aware yourself as a player. It is not knowledge or understanding, it is awareness. Until this moment, your life will be complicated, unclear and confusing. You'll toss in a cage in your own mind, without understanding that you are not in a cell, but the cell into you. And it can't be open inside, where you frantically trying to find keys. The door is not inside (in the mind), but outside (in the heart). Though it was never locked. Just push it. And have the courage to come out. That's all.

Can you refuse what you do not want?
Do not fight, do not resist, do not change yourself, just stop doing what does not light your heart?
And will you find the courage to take that freedom, relaxation and "void" that will arise in your life?

13:20 frequency. Flight is normal. Pandora is going away, illusions are dispelling. Heart heals new illusions of loneliness and the same illusions of relationship. Breath of freedom is crystal and cold. It is like ice I breathe and love, turn all feelings and thoughts into Silver Endless Dreams and new hopes.

Eternity... I am standing on your threshold and light wind of timelessness is blowing my hair.
It blows through me without traces, without pain. It cleans. Cleansing by love which always will be called as fire silence... of icy flame that burns all transitory and never put commas...

Over human understanding and insights. My color is indigo. Everything is not like it is, everything is just like you see it, like you can see it.
It is a tranformation... of the world and you. There is no necessary to look at old pictures and miss the past world.
Soon back to the new road.
Everything isn't come. The ability to see it comes.

強くになりたい。今私は飛行機みたい...　速まってから、飛ぶ。今、飛ぶのときを待っている。今から出来上がる。この気持ちがある。最善の方法。これがある。

日本が懐かしいな...　早く帰りたいけど、全部はよくになるために今仕事で頑張らなくちゃ

I have got a cold cause of russian weather and low temperature... But I have to work. I have to. I can't ill, not now...

Don't try to improve people, find those who is already good for you.

My life is better and better everytime, day to day.
I always loved my life and was really happy, because I always lived the way I want in everything - everything! But it really becomes better and better! So, if I was happy some time ago, now I'm happy even more) Day to day. Better and better. Everything - me, my life.
If it's growing so much I think through 30 years I will have happiness as big as whole universe :)

Minimum free time and work. Yes maybe I'm not so free now, but I enjoy my work. It's the mainest aspect for any person - to do what you love, only this has really meaningful. I need to do it irreproachability.
I want to do everything with this point. Recently this quality grew up in my life even more (so more that now I'm not that girl I was not so long time ago)... If you do - do it good.
Actions and thoughts should be the same, the one.
I don't need anything without this position. Quality is my priority.
I like everything I do, I like every person I'm with. I CAN'T do what I don't want to do at all, really at all! It's my own quality and I never can sold it for anything, for any situation or person. Because, for example, when you lie - you sold your quality, you sold yourself inside.
I wrote about it before... but it is SO important...
I want to be as clear as I can. If you will be clear, everything around you will be clear :)
Everything around you just a mirrow of you.
Want to know more about your inner state? - Look around on your life :)

Tenderness.

To want and to need is very different things. When you need - you catch at any possibility. No one can help you, but yourself.